You want to know what I'm thinking...okey doke...
This last month I've been learning to be okay with never understanding some things. He truly does work in mysterious ways. I'll leave it at that.
When I was in Hawaii, the only real alone time I had was at night after the kids went to sleep. So I would go outside and walk to the ocean. Almost every night I would just sit there in the dark alone listening to the waves and looking at the stars...of course. It was interesting to feel the fear of sitting beside such an intensely powerful thing as the ocean in the darkness, and yet find a pleasure and peace that I rarely feel anywhere else. I was like, wow...this is similar to what it's like to be with my Father. He is so unspeakably huge and powerful, yet because of Jesus making a way for me to be Fathered by such a God, my heart is hidden, protected, and restored by Him...the one who orchestrates every circumstance around me to my good. I just am so overwhelmed that I have the privilege of entrusting my future to the one who knows it all and promises to work everything to the good of those who love Him. But why is it so hard to take my heart and all of me to one so deserving as Him?
I guess it's just another thing I'll never understand...luckily my parents raised me to believe that understanding is not necessary for obedience...my parents are freaking amazing.
Lyrics of the day..."I'm holding on, holding on to You, my world is wrong, my world is a lie and it's come true, and I fall in love with the ones that run me through...when all along all I need is You..."
Verse of forever..."but the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him...on those whose hope is in His steadfast love..."
